Which brings me to what this blog is about...
2012 is now upon us boys and girls. So I wish you all a Happy New Year! I hope you kicked off the New Year in a memorable way. I went through a round of Sambuca Shots Roulette. Fun times!
***WARNING - Ranting ahead***
But I must admit I am fearful of the year ahead of me. I fear that this year my life will be turned upside down in many ways. Day 4 of 2012 & I am not disappointed. Since New Years I have been suffering with a horrible cold which has resulted in time off work... missing out on some social things... & lack of sleep. Not fun!
In less than 2 weeks... A very special person in my life, I suppose I could call her my mentor as well as my friend, is moving away to a far away place called Ipswich. Yes... I am talking about Becca. Over 3 years ago she arrived to The Wood & since then (especially in the last 2 years) she has been there for me through the laughs & the tears. I'm not sure how I'm going to cope without her (especially without my weekly coffee meetings). But... I'm very proud of her. Why? Because she's going on to do something truly amazing that she wants to do - That is a wonderful thing. I will miss you B!
Another thing that's happening in less than 2 weeks... Carpenters Community Church is disbanding after decades of service (I say decades because I'm not entirely sure how long it's actually been running so I'm going to say roughly 20 years or so!)
Personally... I've been going there for almost 7 years. The church has seen me at the best moments in my young life & the worst moments. To be honest, the church feels like one great, big dysfunctional family. We all have our history... We all have our problems... & we're all together, supporting each other, possibly disagreeing with each other - Just being a family.
Guess what?!?! It doesn't end there! Due to Carpenters disbanding it means another big part of my life will be coming to an end. When I joined Carpenters all those years ago I also joined the youth group which was called B@. Within this funny, little Youth Group I made many friends... Also lost many friends... But the friends I gained I'll hopefully know for a lifetime because every time I with them, whether it be coffee, cinema or whatever, I cherish it & I cherish my time with them.
But of course it's been a few years since I actually attended the Youth Group... For the past few years I've been helping out there (with my lovely girlfriend lending a hand if she is able). It doesn't feel like I do much... Taking part in the activities, Extra pair of hands to help out, give my opinions, help with transport etc... I love it. I never thought it could end. I always thought that it would go on for years & I'd still be helping out here & there if I could.
So the loss of all these things will cause quite a big whole in my life. I'm not quite sure how I'll fill that gap.
But some exciting things are happening I have to say! (Can't always be such a pessimist!)
Over the past few months there has been some fundraising for a special little project my friend Bobby has been organising. She, along with some other trustees (me!) & volunteers are setting up a FREE Tutor Centre (called Apollo Tutors) for Secondary Schoolers. It is a very exciting project & I hope to be lending my support in anyway I can!
Then of course there's the Rootz Film Club. Becca (that Youth Worker person I mentioned earlier) set up the club months & months ago in the Rootz Coffee Shop. Originally it there were two clubs: 11-18 year olds & 18+. But due to the 18+ not being as popular as we'd like (which is quite upsetting because I used to love it) there is not only the "Teen" club.
Why is this exciting? Beeeeeeeeecause... With Becca departing soon (*cries*) the running of the club will be taken on by myself & some other lovely individuals (e.g. the lovely Claire) So you see... EXCITING!!!
& finally... I'm to make a decision. I've never really been 100% sure what I want to do with my life. I used to think I wanted to do Youthwork but began to think that wasn't really the right job for me. Then I thought that maybe I should go into Counselling but something was always holding me back.
But I began to realise something. I love helping people. I really do. But something I've always had a passion for... is Film. All my life I've been obsessed with watching films (which has increased majorly over the past year or so) & when I was 16 & trying to decide what I want to do with my life... I never thought about going into something to do with Film.
So now... my decision is... To go into Counselling... Or to go into becoming a Film Critic (Crazy right?)
Either way I need to apply to do a part time course. The Counselling course is more expensive & is further away. Buuuut the Creative Writing Course (which will help my writing skill + help me get into becoming a Film critic) is closer, cheaper & sounds more fun.
I know what the obvious choice is but I really don't know what to do.
2012 is going to be a very interesting & life changing year indeed!
